I have a headache disorder called New Daily Persistent Headaches. Basically I’ve had a headache every day for 5+ years.
I am a Christian. I know God is kind and all powerful yet… He hasn’t healed me. Herein lies the struggle. Here is a tiny puzzle piece in my journey out of bitterness into joy.
1 Peter 4: 1-2 So then since Christ suffered physical pain, you must arm yourself with the same attitude he had, and be ready to suffer too. For if you have suffered physically for Christ, you will be finished with sin. You won’t spend the rest of your life chasing after your own desires but you will be anxious to do the will of God.”
What right have I to ask for more than was given Christ. He suffered. So I suffer. And I soak the suffering in as it make me more like Christ.
Amy Carmichael via Elizabeth Elliot “If I make much of anything appointed, magnifying it secretly to myself or insidiously to others; if I let them think it ‘hard’, if I look back longingly upon what used to be, and linger among the byways of memory, so that my power is weakened, then I know nothing of Calvary love.”
Complaining and letting it be ‘hard’ removes me from His grace and keeps Him from being a part of it.
1 Peter 5:10 In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on firm foundation.
He will mend me and make me strong when the suffering is through.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 Therefore we do not loose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary and what is unseen is eternal.
Light and momentary. Even if that means my whole life it’s still nothing in the span of eternity where the pain will be a distant memory.
2 Corinthians 12:7-10 To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassing revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away. But he said to me “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why for Christ’s sake, I delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
His grace is sufficient. The pain is not too much to bear so I bear it.
Matthew 11:33 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
“My yoke is easy and my burden is light”. I say this to myself all the time. And honestly right now it is so true. The burden of my pain and the changes it has made to my life are an easy burden to bear. I almost forget it is a burden.