Did I know ackowledge I needed therapy? Absolutely not.
But I decided writing a book was just what I needed in the mental unstable time.
Back in the 2010 when I started writing my first book. I did not know that I was therapizing myself. (Yes, I make up words)
I was bitter. I was lonely.
I thought I was just writing a fantasy book. Just for fun.
No.
My subconscious was like “Perfect. Let’s put all your struggles and deepest pains into your main character so you have to confront them.”
Me: “What was that now?”
Subconscious: “Nothing. Just type away you little repressive, middle child.”
So as the main character morphed into me, I finally saw myself. And my pain. And I as I struggled to find a way to free my character, I in turn freed myself.
Yes, my life wasn’t going according to plan.
I didn’t plan on having to stop working my dream job because of debilitating chronic migraine/ new daily persistent headache.
I didn’t plan that 12 years later it wouldn’t be gone.
I was mad at God. I was angry. But by writing my books, I came to peace with God. And I came to peace with my life. And my joy is so deep and wide that most days the pain is just background music.
Always there but not ruining everything.
Is it time for you to start writing? Is it time to listen to and heal your inner pain? Put it all on a fictional character. They can handle it. Just give them magic to help ;)
And if you just want to see deep into my soul and all the ways my mind works, go read my diary. I mean read my books. They are all on Amazon.
Have the most lovely day! Thanks for stopping by.
P.S. I have since been to many many hours of therapy. So if you need to go, please go! It’s easier and faster than writing your way out.
